brrr brrr brrr i don't know
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| I miss the old you, sayang |
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| Someday. |
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| I just miss school. |
Hello world. Nama saya Istikhorah binti Ismail. Saya ahli baru kat dunia ni. Harap dapat beri tunjuk ajar. Saya taknak diajar untuk care about people. Teach me how to be heartless. Lost connection with whatever type of people. Hahaha aku dah bosan dengan masalah yang sama. Bukan bermaksud aku nak masalah yang lain..... Aku taknak pun masalah masalah ni. Membebankan hati, perasaan,akal, minda, kepala otak aku je. Aku cuma taknak masalah yang dah settle, yang lepas, yang telah luput dari ingatan berulang semula. I can't face it anymore. Just cannot.
Actually tadi pergi tengok bola dekat stadium. Harimau Malaya lawan Gajah. You know what, I feel nothing. Empty. Zero. I lost concentration of the great match.. I'm just happy as I know Harimau Malaya had score 1 goal. Masa tuu, aku mengambil kesempatan dalam kesempitan yang tak berapa nak sempit sangat, aku menjerit. Yelled. Till I know what is the meaning of "shut up, isti". Hahaha aku cuma inginkan kepuasan. YaAllah masa tuuu rasanya nak menangis lepaskan segala yang terbuku dalam hati.... But I failed. I'm fail to get the satisfaction. Just because of one guy.
My stupidity has been highlighted. Hahaha what a fool me. When everybody was like "damn, how can Thailand shoot that ball to the goal?", I was like "I've knew already....." The most thing I want to point is, the refree for the second half game. OMFG, we better buried he down. Don't let any other people paid him to be a refree for another football game. Cermin mata tak pakai ke apaa. Terang-terang player Malaysia kena shoot dekat kepala,dia boleh teruskan game. What the hell is going on with his mind. Cut his dick and better back off. Shit. Can't deny okay cause coach Thailand player pun ruffle bagai nak gilaa. Hahaha lawak gila k time tu.
I'm just too stupid of trusting people easily. I'm fucking stupid of giving people another chance easily. I'm so stupid of doing something without think twice. Hahaha sad me is sad. Aku jealous dengan kebahagiaan orang. Aku jealous dengan kesenangan orang. I want it too. Aku taktahu. Mungkin Tuhan tangguhkan kesenangan dan kebahagiaan aku untuk masa akan datang. Atau mungkin Tuhan dah bagi kebahagiaan dan kesenangan tuu. Cuma aku je yang tak perasan sebab terlalu lalai dengan kehidupan dunia. Who knows right :') Allah always gives gives gives gives and forgives. Human always get get get get and forgets. I feel ashamed of the Lord.
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